Saturday, June 13, 2015

To Paul John Dacles Boltron

To my ever loving boyfriend <3


I never really knew you, you were just another friend, but when I got to know you, I let my heart unbend.  We got same likes, but we contradicted in attitude. I can say now that polar opposites really do attracts. I told myself to always keep my guard up, but you take the risk to stole my heart. I couldn't help remembering past memories that would only make me cry. I had to forget my first love and give love another try so I fell in love with you and I'll never let you go. Yeah its too corny to say this but, I love you more than anything I just had to let you know and if you ever wonder why I don't know what I'll say but just remember one thing I love you.
I love you so much Babe. To infinity and beyond.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Horror movies never scares me.
What scares me most is that thing called REJECTION </3

I've been rejected so many times in my life. From my family, friends, school, the things i wanna achieve but the most hurtful rejection i got is from the person who i fell in love.

But that was back then. Now, i just learned keep my feelings so that thing called rejection won't invade my heart again.
Yeah, sounds selfish but its a great escape from hurts, pains and sorrows.





Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Dear my fellow fallible,

you grow by making mistakes,
by getting hurt,
and you learn from our regrets.
But change for the better,
don't change for someone else, CHANGE FOR YOURSELF. :)
You know what, i already don't care about loosing people who don't wanna be in my life anymore.
I've lost someone who meant the world to me and as you can see... i'm still doing just fine. :3
I wanna be with someone who won't stay mad at me, 
who can't stand not talking to me, 
and who's forever afraid of losing me. :3

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Fangirl Yume (dream)~ [ONE-SHOT] by. Judi

Fangirl Yume~

Oh June! Here you go! Hello new classmates! A new set of school year is coming.

I met Jereil, She’s the captain ball of our soccer team. She became my close friend because we have the same likes, we’re an Otaku. She asked me why I didn’t try to listen Korean music. I’m an avid fan of Japanese pop so she said maybe I’ll like Korean pop too because it’s in the same genre.

Weeks passed, I’ve never admire this much before, over a series in my life. I love Xiah, NO! I love Kim Junsu. In Dong Bang Shin Ki, Junsu really gets my attention. He had a unique voice. He also had a cute attitude and handsome features just like other artist I’ve known, but I know there is something to him that really caught my feelings. I start researching everything about them and when I see them (I know I will) I’m going to call him by his real name so he will recognize that I’m a real Cassiopeia, not just a fan.

Months passed by, August came. And oh yes! I’ve got my money from my savings and I planned to buy their best selection album, I asked my mom to accompany me to Odyssey . Felt little embarrassed going to Robinson’s Odyssey because I had to go by myself. My mom does not approve of my fandom. “But I’m not a fan” I insist, “I’m Junsu’s future wife”. Whatever! Pride is nothing. At least now I have my album to watch and listen with a big giant poster of him smiling down at me in my room. Ayeee!

Yay! Going to Seoul with my friends! We became an exchange student to study for a month at South Korea! I’m really thankful in this big opportunity. I planned in a few weeks; I will have a pit stop at SM Entertainment Agency to see my Junsu and DBSK. Too bad I’m the only Cassiopeia in this trip so no one can be with me. ?
Oooh.. The last week of our stay in Seoul came so fast. Oh great! Still no Junsu sighting. Err. Its ok, I’ll just keep on watching Code Geass, one of my favorite anime.

Hello October! I got back from Korea. I’m now in my beloved land Philippines. I’ve got the rumor saying that Junsu is going out with that Heebon. I don’t care! DBSK can’t have their girlfriends anyway.
Oh men! December! Happy Birthday Lord! Happy Birthday Junsu!  We celebrate his birthday last Dec. 15, But i think my admire for Junsu is fading. I watched his Mozart Musical last month in the YouTube. It is amazing but, I feel like he’s getting too big for me. Maybe I should go for someone less famous and more reachable.
I saw Hideaki Torio of XLR8 live in Megamall last week. He got his fans by his moves and voice. Kim Xiah Junsu, I think you’ve been replaced.

Happy New Year! I’ve heard about Junsu’s latest solo album, the Intoxication. And wow! Im right, no one can replace Junsu in my heart. He’s still the best for me because of his pure uniqueness. Bye Aki. Hello Again Junsu.
Happy Valentines Day! And oh my gosh! TVXQ LIVE IN MANILA!

I already got my ticket to the 3rd Mirotic Asia Tour concert. My friend Kristina is forcing me to go for the upper box A tickets but I don’t have that big money to buy tickets for the upper box.
2 weeks before the concert, I was walking with Fatima and Kristina in Mall of Asia and overheard the sales lady talking about how DBSK had just finished filming there. How did I not know that?!
Its 2 o’clock in the afternoon, there’s a crowd of girls at Starbucks. We decided to have a cup of hot chocolate there. We’re still lucky to have unoccupied seats near the counter. In our sweet talks, we are bothered when everyone in the café screams. I get stunned when Junsu walks right past me with his co-members. Kristina and Fatima also scream. I wonder why they are here. Oh! I see, they’ll just have a cup of coffee too.

An hour passed, the Starbucks was still noisy. Everyone is still calling their names. Junsu! Yoochun! Jaejoong! Changmin! Yunho! Except from us, of course we’re too shy to do that.
I looked at Junsu. He whispers something to their leader Yunho. I apply my lip-reading skills and I think he says something like… “I want that quiet lady near the counter to be my future wife”.  Hahaha!
We already finished drinking our hot chocolate. But we can’t go just like that. The waiter told us that DBSK never allows people to take pictures with them. I figured I have nothing to lose, so I try anyway.
Me: can I get a picture with all of you?

Their leader Yunho: okay. But quickly please.
I posed beside Junsu and he puts his arm around me. Kristina is beside Jaejoong and Fatima beside Yunho. What a happy family. This is better than anything I could have ever dreamed up!
We say thank you and calmly leave the café. We proceed to the nearest restroom where we start squealing and jumping around. I already go home to upload our picture with DBSK in Facebook.
February 15, the 3rd Mirotic Asia Tour Concert!

My friends and I met at the Araneta coliseum gate 1. We line up early for the concert. We start creating our flyers and banners to show our love and support.
Still early for the concert, we rest and sleep, still waiting for the opening of the gate. Bit disappointed because the line is not that long. I guess there aren’t as many Cassiopeia in manila as I thought.
Good Evening! Wow! I was wrong! We got waked up by the screaming fans because the gate starts to open. I was shocked because the one line I saw before I sleep is now getting too much. I think a line can’t occupy all the Cassiopeia that will watch the concert.

We’re inside! The venue is already packed with screaming fans, some is with their boyfriends. Poor Guys! Do they realize what they’re for? Do they thought that they’re girlfriends much love DBSK than them? Hahaha!
The lights turn on, and the ‘Hey! Don’t bring me down!’ tune starts to play. They appear one by one on the stage while Yunho is beating ‘break it down yo!’ after that is their song ‘Are you a good girl’
They start to sing and dance ‘Mirotic’, ‘Purple line’ and then ‘Rising sun’.

My much awaited solo of Junsu, the ‘Xiahtic’.  He dance wildly and sings the best. I wonder if the lady back-up dancer of Junsu was still alive after performance. I planned to punch her after their performance. She sticks too much to my Junsu. Hmmpft! But of course I’m just kidding. ?

Yoochun have his solo, the ‘Love bye love’, Jaejoong with his ‘Footsteps’, Changmin with his ‘Upon this rock’ and Yunho with his ‘Checkmate’. I wonder why Yunho doesn’t have his girl back-up dancer in his performance. Maybe he thinks that Jaejoong will get angry. Hahaha! Yunjae! ?

They finished their ‘Crazy love’, ‘Love in the ice’, and ‘Song for you’.
All the lights turned off. And the Red ocean of Cassiopeia appears with screams. I get stunned when I heard the opening voice of Junsu performing my all-time favorite song, ‘Tonight’. My heart beats fast because the song was so sweet. Everyone was quiet when we heard the falsetto part of Jaejoong.
The song ends. We keep on screaming our fan chant, Dong Bang Shin Ki Fighting! Then the DBSK end up with their ‘Kamsahamnida’ and ‘Salamat po’ with ‘Mahal kita’. <3
It’s 11 o’clock of the evening. The concert ends. My friends and I leave tired but really happy, playing DBSK songs all the way home.

Always Keep The Faith!! W

-judihime

A/N:
that was all based in my real life!!! :)))

*pfftt! ohyeeeesh! IM JUST KIDDING! THERE IS NO TVXQ LIVE IN MANILA, AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN DARE VISITING STARBUCKS HERE IN PH. >//

LOL :D

Kiss Quarrel~ [ONE-SHOT] by. Judi

Kiss Quarrel~


"Where shall we go now?" Yumi asked, as they walked out of the dark theater into blinding afternoon light.
"I don't know, are you hungry?" Kaito asked.
Yumi made a gesture of ambivalence. "Not hungry, but maybe a drink..."
"Let's go to the park, then, and have some tea." Kaito recommended.
As they walked, Yumi thought over the days leading up to this one. Kaito known that she’s still in love with him, Kaito fell in love with her again too, and they become lovers with a title, not just what they’re calling, M.U. Her heart beat a little faster at the memory of the words that set it all off.
"What are you thinking about?" Kaito asked, smiling.
"Nothing," Yumi lied.
"Oh." Kaito looked a little put out at that, his smile fading. "Can’t you still believe that you’re now my girlfriend?"
Yumi sighed. "ahm yes. Err~ maybe im just being flattered."
"I know," Kaito's voice was sad. "Me too."
Yumi opened her mouth, and then closed it. Blowing out a frustrated breath, she turned towards Kaito and blurted out, "I..."
"Yumi, I..." Kaito's mouth was half open, staring down at the younger girl. He closed his mouth, and nodded. "Go ahead."
Yumi couldn't take her eyes off Kaito's mouth. "I want you to know that I love you, pls-."
"Yumi…," Kaito cut off Yumi. "I will not hurt you, I really love you."
***

After a month…
Kaito thought, he had no idea it would go this far. It was, to be honest, a dare. And not even a dare for him, specifically. He had been in the classroom and a few of the boys had been joking with one of the others, and someone joked that on a dare, he should try to get a kiss from his ‘best friend’ that is Yumi. And then one of the boys said he'd do it, and so did the other two and they promised to report back the next day.
They didn’t know that Yumi is not just his best friend, but his girlfriend. Kaito and Yumi still not ready to tell them the truth. They’re still afraid. Kaito was loved by so many girls in the school, wandering what they can do once they knew that Kaito already had a girlfriend.
Kaito, who had been finishing up his homework, hadn't thought about the dare at all until he had arrived at the Ichihara Mansion to find Yumi alone. And it just popped into his head, to try and steal a kiss from Yumi.
Kaito considered as he entered the room. How would he do it? He could always go with the "look over there!" gambit, but that was lame. How about sharing food...or maybe just...
Kaito walked over to the table, dropping her schoolbag onto the chair and leaning over Yumi, kissed her quickly.
It was nothing, just a quick brushing of lips, a buss, a peck. But Kaito's eyes were filled with blood and his heart was bursting out of his chest as he pulled away.
Yumi's face was pale, her hands covering her lips. "Kaito?"
"I'm sorry...I," he took a step back. He knew, absolutely, that what he had just done was the worst thing in the world he could have ever done. He knew it was wrong, they are just few weeks’ lovers and then a stolen kiss already? Heck!

Standing, Yumi faced him, with watery eyes.
***
They were alone in Yumi's room sitting together at the table, working on homework.
"Isn't it funny," Kaito had joked, "that our first kiss was just because of the dare and take note, its stolen" he almost laughs.
Yumi had looked at him strangely. "That wasn't our first kiss, though."
"Of course it was. The first time we kissed." Kaito looked up at the ceiling. "I want to remember it."
"That was not," Yumi emphasized the word, "my first kiss."
Kaito disagreed. "I kissed you - you were involved."
"But I never kissed back."
"Yumi. Don't you think that the distinction is a little silly? It was the first time our lips touched. Therefore, it was our..."
"No, it wasn't." The usually gentle Yumi had a surprisingly firm tone. "And it's not silly. Is it silly to want to think of my first kiss as one that I actually participated in?"
"Well, yes. Most girls call it their first kiss when someone else's lips and theirs' touch."
"That's not what *I* consider a kiss." Now Yumi's face was a little dark and Kaito could tell that she was angry. Very angry.
"I'm sorry, Yumi, I..."
"No, that's not good enough. You think it's all right to take a first kiss without a person's consent? How would you feel if I had done it to you and walked around telling everyone that that was your first kiss?"
"I..." Kaito took a deep breath. "I wouldn't be...no, I know, I wouldn't mind."
"Well I do."
"Yumi, I'm sorry if I offended you."
Yumi pulled her legs away and stood abruptly, "That's not the point. I can't believe that you, of all people, would be okay with a 'first kiss' being taken without being returned." Her hands clenched. "I'm surprised - and a little disappointed in you, Kaito." Her lips tightened. "I think maybe you should go home."
Stunned, Kaito stood. "If you feel that strongly about it, I will." And he had.
***
Yumi and Kaito’s relationship was spread at their whole class. Some get disappointed specially those who likes Kaito. But some was just happy like their close friends, Hiruka, and Koji.
The next few weeks were horrible. The first kiss argument had spilled over into every interaction. Kaito and Yumi’s disagreements divided their class on any number of issues, from the color of the backdrop for the school play, to the approval of a new club. Both sides refused to back down and repeated attempts by Koji and Hiruka to play peacemaker. Only when they’re teacher had demanded that they find a way to work together properly, had tempers cooled a little.
But only a little.
Where before they had arranged their schedules to meet anytime they could, now they were avoiding each other like the plague.
Why they had fallen out, no one ever learned. Rumors were rampant, of course, and creative. Koji had come right out and asked, but all Kaito would say was that he and Yumi had "disagreed." Rumor focused on why they didn't then split; as if that would have been the normal course that any reasonable person would take in the situation.
Kaito was angry. That he would admit. He couldn't understand why Yumi would discount that first kiss - even if it had been one-sided. It was if she herself was being discounted.
Yumi, impenetrable, as always, made no other reference to the matter. No one would ever come right out and ask her what the fight had been about. Hiruka came the closest, but failed in the end to get a satisfactory answer.
***
It was Yumi who had started it, and it was Yumi who ended it.
Once again alone in the Ichihara Mansion, she looked up as the door opened. Kaito entered, met Yumi’s eyes and nodded.
"Are you busy this weekend?" Yumi asked - quite out of the blue, "I thought we'd go to a movie together, if you'd like."
Kaito thought about it for a moment. "I'd like that." Then burst into tears. Yumi ran over, put her arms around her boyfriend, and they cried together for a while.
And then it was all over.
***
The park was busy, but they found a place to sit on the edge of a wall looking out at a fountain. Each had a crepe in one hand (chocolate for Yumi, mixed fruit for Kaito) and a can of ice tea in the other.
"It was totally my fault," Yumi said. "I'm sorry."
"I was insensitive," Kaito suggested, trying to shoulder some of the blame.
"No," Yumi shook her head. "There was something I want you to know." She looked away, her voice small and a little quivery. "I get angry with that first kiss argument because..."
Kaito gaped. "because?."
"im just afraid to have my first kiss, because I know that im not your first kiss, but now I understand it. Im sorry” Yumi continued.
"ooh.. its ok, im sorry too, for being your first kiss.” said Kaito.
"that’s fine, you’re my boyfriend after all” added Yumi.
And then it all made perfect sense.
"Yumi," Kaito said, smiling. "Can we make a deal?"
Yumi nodded, unsurely.
"Finish up your crepe, drink your ice tea and come with me." Yumi bit into the ice cream crepe, moaning as the inevitable brain freeze hit. They ate quickly and steadily, drank their tea and threw away the refuse. Taking Yumi's hand, Kaito led the way to the subway, laughing.
When they arrived at Kaito's home, they were both laughing. And they laughed as they removed their shoes, greeted his mother and politely refused the offer of tea.
When they were alone at last, Kaito took Yumi’s hands in his own.
"Here's the deal. We start over, right here, right now. And we don't fight anymore."
"Deal," Yumi agreed.
Hand in hand, they moved towards each other.
For their very first kiss.

~End

-Judihime